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Assalamualaikum & Salam Sejahtera.

Been long time i'm here. still looking to something i never realize in my life. but until when? living around my little darkness room without "light". seeking... searching... but there is nothing.

How many i tried spend time for that, but its totally worthless. everyone need it included me. my heart always cried deep inside. speechless... when i look people out there, they are happy with what they have. enjoy they life... but for me... everything just empty... dark... gloomy...

Even i try to chase it... it will run far away from me... when it come close to me, i saw the future... no there is no luck to me with it until i realize its not for me. now, i need to change... need to restructure everything for a better life.

Living on own world feel like nothing. no friends, no joy, no happiness, everything is nothing to me. only sadness that i never expressed it... but inside... who's know bout it. there is lots of thing i want to do, but it return back to my self. i always can see what will happen. because of it, i think too much and make drastic decision and i never regret bout it.

As a normal person, i'm thinking bout over and over again. but i must accept the truth that already wrote on my journey. done is done & past is past. i must face it... now...